Choose your life and have the faith, it's my story.

If i may choose, i dont know what that choice which made me go so far and far away from what i ever imagined. My life begin when i had that first goal/dreams that i want to reach about 8 years ago the time when the first time i chose what i want and yes i want to go over all the world. I was a stubborn girl with so big ambition to reach what i want. Finishing my study in University i tried hard to get a job that at first i thought that it is the best most fit job for me, but yeah God had different plans fo me. I tried to apply for that job n dont know why I always disquaified for that job till one time i applied again for that job n dont know why, during the interviewed process at that time my heart said that im not supposed to be there and that was the first time yeah i gave up for my dream job. Then still i was looking for a job and this time i had one principle that i had to work away from my home town and yes I finally got a job in Surabaya, im from Malang. At first i felt enjoy working there, enjoy my free life without family around and just do all the things myself although i still had my brother around. On my working place i learnt about hospitality so well, how u got to treat people like they were in their own home, i learnt how to smile welcomely to each person that i have met at that time. Yeah im not the girl who is easily get satisfied, for 6 months i felt enough working in that place i felt this job gave me too much free time, and that was the time i choose to challenge myself to do something more and yes i applied to a new job still in Surabaya. Yes this job is 180 degree different from my first job, i worked in an office, nice office with some people around me and yes i learnt something new, i learnt each person in that office one by one, have their own mask have their own self. And this is the first time i felt soo interfered with my boss. I love the job, a really busy job from 8 in the morning to 5 in the afternoon working in an office facing the computer and facing supplier on the phone, i felt time walk soo fast. But one thing nothing's perfect i have to face the boss that was really yeah im sorry but i just couldnt accept all her act as a boss. And yes after 6 months working there with all the things that i learnt finally i resigned from that job, and i haven't found any job and i came back to my hometown Malang.

I was really down with my choice, but again i have to face all the consequences. There are no effects without causes. I spent the last 5 months being jobless. a month after resigned from my last job I applied to one management trainee program from a bank that i attend in my University jobfair. Yeah two weeks after i was called to attend the psychology test of that bank, i do really excited. The recruitment process had to pass 7 steps. And that took me 5 month jobless. Im not giving up just waited for that bank recruitment, i applied to almost hundreds companies via email some company called me to come for the interviews and dont know why, the interviews was going well but i was disqualified again and again. I really dropped deep deep down really sad being jobless person in that age and i was 23 at that time, i couldnt see anything clearly i was too young to open my mind that was life. Thank God this bank that i told u before called me for the last interview step, and everything walks really well and i was accepted to work to this bank which faced me to another challenges and i went to Jakarta for the first time having my mind open to this big city. One year i spent with full of enjoyment, so free without even at once scared. And at that time i really wish to make a living in that place i didnt want to go any further than this place. Till that day i had to face the reality to go working in the new place with new environment, new languages, new culture and all things are new for me, I was placed to work in one city in South of Sumatra. I never imagined what city is that, but to be a responsible people yes i have to finished what i begun.

I remembered the first time i looked upon the plane window from above the land it looked it was really new to me where there was so many green forest. I didnt know whether i can finished this once more, this was the reality that i couldnt changed. i learnt to push my ego really pushed it down and let everythings happen. Sad, scared, lonely, all the complex emotions i can felt that time. Crying but only have the wall on the boarding house can see you, till you cry but those tears is too tired too fall. At this time, mind management that i learnt. Everything that happened to you, it's only the way how your mind gonna control it.

Believe it or not we met a person is not by accident. We met because God choose the person to meet u to make your mind open, to have u learnt from that person, to change you to the better.

These days i just want to spend my time in this place change what to change learn what to learn. And my time is almost come, so i always put a long term goal in my life with plans all over my head. This goal that i have to achieve is getting closer i hope God really prepare me well so that i do really deserve enough to achieve my goal.

Let me conclude, if u want a never flat life, u have put that short term and long term goals over and over in your head at first. Then make a list what u have to do to achieve that goal. Sometimes it will put you on some obstacles which is gonna put you asking yourself "is that goal precious enough for you?" That time you were really tested. If u said yes that goal i have to achieve then you are gonna be led to your long term goal still. Let me tell you why that obstacles is easily to come for you to be faced, yes because that goal is soo precious for you to achieve and before you achieve it of course you have to be deserve enough. That obstacles are the tools for you to learn, to grow and to change for the better and yes to be deserve enough for your goal.

So lets changing our mind nothing bad happening is always bad, if you can see it differently you are gonna find the "why" that you always ask. Remember you never alone in this world you have God, you have someone inside your heart, He always be with you in every steps that you through. Pray always for yourself so that you can change for the better and still to be deserved enough to achieve your goal on time.

It's raining here with myself in this room ohh it's already some hours blackout. Still "bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kamu punya", God is good in all the time.